I'll be honest with you, this week was a major challenge for me. It was super stressful and irritating and emotional - all triggers for me to go comfort myself with some chocolate or cookies. I didn't do it. Instead, my instinct wasn't to go stuff my face. I wanted to go to the gym and sweat it out instead. That realization in itself was major for me. It kind of made the emotional ups and downs of the week worth it. I got mad a lot last week. One example of why - my 4 year old - Nathan. I found him and Xander in my newly remodeled master bathroom holding my new nail polish upside down and open and pouring it all over the floor, vanity, side of the toilet, granite counter top, his hands, feet and face. I think I had my first actual conniption. I was so angry I screamed at him and scared him. I don't think he'll ever do that again. HA! I apologized for yelling at him so much but he needed to learn that it's not ok to play with Mommy's nail polish - EVER. This was just one thing - one major thing that happened that made me really upset this past week.
An up from the week was that while I was looking at some old pictures on Facebook, I found one from my 33rd birthday that I thought was a pretty good picture of me. I saw the difference in my face between then and now. I was stunned. I didn't realize how pudgy my face was and how much thinner it is now! Here ya go... comparison:
Can you see the major difference? That was a huge moment for me. Seeing it there in photographs really made it real. Seeing the numbers on the scale helps and feeling my clothes getting looser helps too. I really wanted to SEE a difference in my face, abs, thighs, arms, etc. I can now. People are starting to notice. I got the best remarks from one of my pastors on Tuesday. I saw him in the morning while I was heading in to Nathan's preschool to pick him up and he was leaving. I hadn't seen him since I started losing and he noticed immediately. He told me that it's working, I look great and that Chris should lock me up so he doesn't lose me! HAH! That really made my day and probably my week since I'm still talking about it!
Below is a pic my friend, Meghan posted as a "throwback" photo. This is me and my fellow high school senior cheerleaders back in 1997 at our last basketball game of the year. I'm hoping to look this good again by next year! Do ya think I can? Or maybe get close... My belly will never look the same again no matter how much weight I lose. The stretch marks are bad. LOL! I'll never wear a bikini again but I'll rock my one piece or tankini hard when I get there. Even now I think I'll feel more confident than I did in my bathing suit.
I was so small back then! Even when I met my husband I wore between a size 2 and a size 4. Then my thyroid stopped working right and it all went downhill from there! I'm not going to let my thyroid get the best of me anymore! I even went to the gym on Mother's Day and did my longest stretch on the elliptical ever - 40 minutes! Woohoo!
I will keep going. I will lose this weight. I will get healthy. I will live a long life for my kids. I want to be around to see my grandkids grow up and their kids too. My grandma is still around at age 85 and still doing great! I hope and pray I have her longevity too! Other than the thyroid and the slightly high cholesterol, I'm super healthy! No high blood pressure - in fact the last time I went to the doctor my BP was almost too low.
I keep this scripture in my head all the time - especially now - "I can do all things through Christ Jesus" and that God never gives us more than we can handle. Keep that close to your heart, everyone! He gives me the strength to get through this!!!
Well, I need to get moving for today! Get my exercise in... I'm going to cut the grass for my main cardio work out. Did you know that counts as cardio? So does cooking! Who would have thought?!?!?
Have a great and super blessed week everyone!